The Best Toy I Never Had
Wednesday, February 20th, 2008
Even if it has become affordable, I have yet to own a remote-controlled (RC) model car.
Perhaps, if only to sustain my longing and maintain the state of RC deprivation, I deliberately refuse to buy one.
It has become the symbol of the things that I consider as unreachable goals.
Ironically, there is a twisted sense of fulfillment in constantly fighting off the natural tendency to fulfill a desired objective
Consciously- and unconsciously -setting personal limitations has its price:
Everybody else seems to be more successful,
adherence to the practice of monogamy, and
daily being yoked equally by eclecticism and skepticism.
A few years back I witnessed another ironic event: a goat tied to a peg in an open field; that the more it tried to run away the more the leash becomes wrapped around the peg as the goat ran around it until its neck got stuck to the peg.
That occurrence, also, got stuck in my mind because it, almost, parallels life itself -
mine, in particular.
Strange and puzzling as it may seem, if that goat ended up happy, then, the parallel is complete.
